Home again- A poem about longing and finding a new Querencia

HOME AGAIN 

Tis the feel 

The feel of warmth 

in the midst of winter 

Oh, I miss it 

In the Agony of leaving it behind

In the hope of moving away

In the fear of what to come

In the wrath of not to fail

In the middle of all

I Stood, Still.

could've moved,

could've stopped,

Could've returned to the place behind it all 

for the feel of warmth

in the flakes of snow

Nothingless, 

I waved at sun ahead

waiting to rise

Waiting to thrive 

Stepped in the way pebbles of doubt

I ogled them,waiting to see what are they?

Why are they?

And who are they?

Sighing,

in the wanted need to seek Querencia

I followed the sun ahead 

To touch the feel of home again 

to relive the warmth again 

in the midst of winter 

The poem is written about the conflicting battle within the mind that most of us Experience and have been there. There is a time or was or will be but it has to be there, the time of leaving behind your Sanity, comfort and warmth of home. As simple as it looks like it is not and as hard as it looks like its not. All this depends on the way you let yourself perceive and think. Home is not just a place Where you live, it's not just your bed or desk or living area, instead it is a place that you always come back to after experiencing and enduring a hell lot of emotions, distress, overwhelming happiness, uncertainty or even Insanity for the sake of seeking comfort or to share the Satisfaction. And Each time you come home, you can feel this weird sense of Strength or Soundness through the naked wall of comfort, and Now it's not Just your Home but it's Querencia for you. It is the place where you have cried, giggled, laughed, loved and even broke down and you did all this without any sense of discomfort or hesitation because little place allows you to be vulnerable and raw without any sense of coldness. It's a emotion now and not just a place. And the most intriguing fact is that you have built it day by day, emotion by emotion, feelings by feeling and most importantly you've built it for your own sake of Strength and reliance.

So When the parting time comes, it becomes tough and Heavy to leave the place behind and to find a way to live with a new normal. But I came to understand and believe that you can have more than one Home, and each of them are respectfully equivalent. what's more interesting is that each of them have it's own form of comfort and Strength.

 But a very Valid Question is still unanswered that How one can find a new home or a second Home? How you can get the old Sense of loving and Coziness from this out of the blew new place? 

so, The answer is basically I don't know because there is no "WAY" for it. You Starts to develop it, Slowly and time by time and the best way to develop that Sense that feel you should Start by accepting the Change firstly and by not escaping it and then by letting your guard down for yourself.

Allow yourself.

Accept yourself. 

Push Yourself.  

But don't let yourself fall.

Just flow with it. 

And fuck the world then.

Simple. 

Stay strong  

Seeking Querencia