Contradictory Choices

I wish I could be reborn

In this life only to get that done

With same choices 

Under different circumstances

Not just to paint the canvas with glittery gold

Rather design my own with a hint of blue, green, and white 

Tried, I had

Tired, I am 

Furnishing these wild running thoughts

With no final destination 

hoping this time pain will become a pleasure,

 would regain that touch of coffee beans 

and would get the answer of WHY?

Entangling my peace, my sanity

and losing my sagacity

Do I know how to feel?

maybe not 

maybe I’m worse than that 

Or is it my mind playing tricks

Or the above heavens imparting a message?

or the wind is pushing me?

Urge you to see the broken behind rude words

Disappointment behind angry eyes

The strength behind watery falls

Silence holding Unspoken pain

Who is YOU?

Is it me? Telling to dust me up

Throwing light?

Spreading darkness?

sprinkling tears?

Making serene cloudy grey?

the wait is all I can do

In this life.

or maybe I should lay down gazing at the moon 

and stop anticipating and rebuild the castle here in the mud

You remember that one stage in your life where you feel you could just be reborn. Yeah, you wished for that but the reality isn't supporting you. But what if I told you that you could be reborn, yes you could. the life that you are living right now is the reflection of the choices that you made in the past and by changing your choices in this life, you can live an entirely new life. I am not asking you to make THE perfect decision but instead what I am asking you is that make those decisions which set your peace level high. The glittery gold life can only be seen on Instagram but you made your little faded pastel life.

Most of the you went to bed with same question of WHY? and don't get the right answer. But that doesn't mean you stop searching for the answer or you will stop working in order to know and understand your answer. Choices are tough and painful but changing the way your made them by improvising your perception is the key.

Human minds are so developed that they do not stop working even when we are asleep and all thoughts are running through your head and you want them to stop and stop feeling unknown grey within yourself. But listen to me you can’t stop those thoughts but what you can stop is pulling yourself down. Even if you are at the lowest stage of your life you can still be better by just changing the way you see things and making those little choices differently.

Co-written by Raksha Arora

Thank you

stay safe

Loads of strength